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Final Fantasy XIII Versus was first seen at E3 in 2006 (the same year the PS3 was released). Given that it was a teaser trailer, how much of a troll is it to see plenty of Square Enix PS3 titles release since then? 

Way to tease us for 6 years in counting. In fact, I bought a PS3 for this game alone. What was more unnerving was that when FFXIII came out, it was released on both the PS3 and Xbox 360. 

What ever happened to exclusivity? I still really never heard a reason for this decision and the execution of the game itself was…acceptable.

I know that no gaming company has the capacity to meet the expectations of millions of fans in one game but I really did feel that this last one was executed in a way that just didn’t appeal to me. I mean…it is an rpg right? So what happened to all the optional caves, dungeons, temples and whatnot? The layout of the entire game was linear that you only had to go a little out of your way for treasure orbs. 

The story was in fact amazing if it wasn’t for how complex it was. I felt like I needed a book in order to understand the entire story to fully appreciate all of the details. I wasn’t attached to any of the characters at all like I was in 7…8…9…10…12…

And I hated Hope Estheim. Frekin crybaby. 

All in all, of course I’ll buy the game when it comes out-if it comes out.
But will I be excited for it?  

After all that?

……

Nah. 

fayelola08 asked: i am really interested in lucid dreams i like ur blog just wanted to say hey and if u want to talk about lucid dreams ?

oh hi! sorry, I don’t often get messages too often!
Sure! I’d love to chat! :) 

Spending an afternoon with my girlfriend, we were randomly browsing Netflix and decided to watch an anime called Highschool Of The Dead. I was curious to see how well this anime did and apparently it was listed among the worst manga of 2011 at Comic-Con. After looking through some tumblr tags, I’ve read “reviews” that simply describe the first episode and continue to bash on this anime solely on the show’s fan service.

Lucky for them, it’s not the stupidest review I’ve ever read but it’s up there.

For those of you who know nothing about story crafting, suspense is key to keeping your audience hooked. Yes, its a typical zombie apocalypse scenario but a damn fun one. Fun, quality animation, non-cheesy voice acting, comedic elements, and hot girls (and hot guys-confirmed by my girlfriend), all make for fantastic presentation that makes this anime very watchable. For those of you who are bashing on this anime for exploiting all the possible upskirt shots and abnormally sized breasts on the female characters, get the stick out of your ass and admit that you secretly enjoy it. God damn.

Don’t get me wrong, I usually love the Christmas Cheer and all the fuzzy warm feelings of giving gifts to others. I love seeing their faces light up in anticipation. However, I feel that with each progressing Christmas, the feeling is recycled, and is slowly diminishing. I’m sorry- allow me to correct myself. This is strictly speaking in family terms.

This is how it is. At every family event, we gather at the Vietnamese Headquarters of Southern California: Westminster. We go to my aunt’s house and we all bring food. The adults drink, talk, laugh, and sing via karaoke so loudly that any white-washed American would want to cry. Being a Vietnamese speaker, I am able to tolerate the language to some degree but even then, I feel like my language gets butchered. Maybe I’m naive and that’s how my language sounds like…and that I’ve just heard prettier versions elsewhere but if that truly is the case- then by god I just hate my language altogether.

So aside from the grown ups having fun, anybody younger than 28 is shoved into grandma’s room. In which we have to share space with everybody’s babies. Yes we love the babies but all the screaming, kicking, shouting, jumping, tripping, and crying- calls for a really hectic and troublesome room. I  will call the culmination of all these baby related things “the Noise”.

I don’t want the deal with “the Noise” on Christmas. In fact, I don’t want to deal with “the Noise” on any day, ESPECIALLY CHRISTMAS. Hence, this blog exists to serve as my calm reflection before the storm. I take a moment’s respite in the comfort of my own home, in my bed, listening to my favorite band- before I have to pack up, drive, and deal with an exhausting day with the exception of presents via secret santa.

Don’t get me wrong. I love my family. But its the same routine at every family gathering. I’m in no rush to have a child but it really sucks donkey balls that the middle age group (whom I believe are in their prime) are the ones who have the least amount of enjoyment at these things.

Get this. I bring my ps3 over so we can play video games-because God knows there fucking NOTHING to do in grandma’s room- and I get nagged at by the adults saying that  all I do is play video games. -.-

Yeah I know. I could explain it to them. But in the end, it’s not worth the effort. No adult likes an explanation from someone younger than them. Especially if it’s correcting their opinion or point of view.

Sigh….Gotta love that Christmas Cheer.
With warm fuzzy feeling and all that shit.

I haven’t even left yet and I already miss home. I miss my friends. I miss my girlfriend.

I hope everyone else’s Christmas is going alot better than mine///

I go by many names:
I am Thane of Whiterun, Solitude, Riften, Winterhold, Markarth, Falkreath, Windhelm, Morthal, and Dawnstar.

I am the Harbinger of the Companions.

I am a Werewolf.

I am the Archmage of Winterhold.

I am the Leader of the Thieves Guild.

I am a Nightingale.

I am the Leader of the Dark Brotherhood.

I am the Listener.

Savior of Sovengard.

Savior of Skyrim.

Slayer of Alduin.

Slayer of the World Eater.

Rider of Shadowmere.

Rider of Odahviing.

I am a bard. lol

I am a bandit’s worst nightmare.

I am a survivor of Helgen.

I am StormBlade.

I am Champion of the Stormcloaks.

I am Champion of Molag Bal.

I am Champion of Meridia.

I am Champion of Sithis.

I am Champion of Azura.

I am on good terms with Dibella ;)

I am the soul harvester of rabbits.

I am the holder of the Elder Scroll.

I am Dovahkiin. 

I am Dragonborn!!

AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO WONDERED WHY THE FUCK WE HAD SEAGULLS AT OUR SCHOOL?!?! 

Lately dreams have been coming to me more frequently. What better way to play with the concept of dreams than to explore with the written (or typed) word while watching Inception!

A few years ago, I was able to lucid dream for a month straight. Don’t ask me how I was able to, it just happened and the things I did within my dreams were absolutely amazing. Lucid dreaming, for those who are not familiar with it, is the type of dream where you are aware of the dream itself. To some extent, the dreamer may be able to exert some control over his or her own dream.

Like mine for instance! Given a few years since this happened, please understand that I don’t remember specifics given the nature of dreams themselves. In my lucid dreams, I remember remarking to myself that I’m in a dream. I also remember flying and conjuring the biggest thing to appear before me. At the time, the biggest thing I could think of was a Jumbo Jet and sure enough, it appeared. Every night during that month, I was excited to go to sleep but not every dream was as lucid as the next. Some nights, I would dream and most of the dream would make itself up as most dreams would, but I was still aware that I was dreaming. 

One night, before I was going to go with my friend, Kevin, to check out a potential college (Berkeley), I had one particularly interesting dream. It was very vivid. 

It was night time and snowing outside. I was outside walking up a snowy slope towards a well lit cabin with a glass wall. The light from the cabin alone radiated warmth into me the closer I got to it. The night sky was lit up with stars like the kind you see when you’re in the mountains or the desert accompanied by a brighter full moon about three times it’s usual size. By the time I reached the cabin I felt the cabin’s brightness seep into me. Instantaneously I felt it’s warmth light up my entire being as if I was in complete bliss. I felt as if all of the universe’s secrets poured into me in one moment of time, and like any other moment, it passes. All that was put in me faded, and I woke up in heat as if still warm from the cabin’s embrace. 

I was spending the night at Kevin’s house and it was a very cold night but my body was immensely hot but I wasn’t sweating. I’ve heard of stories where people wake up in heat and claim that they were close to God himself-like his presence was warm and inviting. This then started to seem like much more than just coincidence. In other dreams that occurred years later, I started to die in my dreams but I did not wake. Instead, I was engulfed in a white light and I could not see my body. I had died from a car accident and assumed my body was gone but I still had a consciousness. In this lucid dream, I tried moving my imaginary body that I could not see and could definitely feel something respond and again-was basked in a warm heat. When I woke up, I was at my aunt’s house on her couch, with my body warm-but not sweating.

Was it coincidence that the feeling of bliss was associated with warmth, death, and God? More than once did I die in my dreams and more than once did I feel this warmth. After the night at Kevin’s house, I was no longer able to lucid dream. In fact, I was no longer able to dream at all. It took several months until  I was finally able to dream again. I tried to pursue that feeling of enlightenment again through deep meditation but it was an impossible task. It’s situations like these where you realize that something like this doesn’t come to those who are looking for it.

How curious that the random thoughts generated by your brain while you’re asleep could link death to bliss-touching on aspects of several religious beliefs.

I’m glad I was able to finally record this down before it faded away well into my old age. Food for thought-

By the way, Inception is an amazing movie that plays with the concept of shared lucid dreaming. That’s actually happened before but I’ll save that for another post ;)